deja carr (maldevisa)
UNTITLED ONE MILLION
What shoulders you have
>They are giants, in my mouth<
I struggle to love you,
Because you are smart enough for me
Some day we will be giants… ::
Bruised apples
And nightshade poems
Counting stars on each other's cheeks
I’ve loved you alone, every hour
And the oceans flood your converse
Upon the shore, check-marked like good shoes
And the forests call you greenThe desert, floods
When your name is in its mouth
For you, I dance and die, and breathe
And die and dance and breathe for money
Or the recognition
Of your neck swinging against my stomach to say
“What Earths live inside here?”
Me, as Black as the sole
You, with your peppery blue veins
Casting spells
Upon the nig
THE SOBRIETY OF A FLY
You.drank.a.whole.cup
Of water
Or blood
And we forget that you are big to the sediments
Of mud
That carry you, a current to a fingernail. The electric shock left, and took a leg
You walk along
And sting the snow to start Spring
What a lovely creature
Yes I will share my candy
If you can promise me,
You’ll savor it.
As you always do.
In this home.
BRING ME THE HORIZON
When I was young, MTV cascaded me in the mornings
No shower. Wet hair.
How does THAT work?
I know you loved me
But you left so early for work
Or so late, however
Alone is how I know myself to be
Music is as me, as I am her
Or him
Or them alone in the bathtub
Beautiful opal face, washing my back
Now I am tired. And stoned for the first time
The other kids tell me I ate a whole
Jar of
Five layer dip
While my friends broke promises
Under sheets, pills in both pockets
I sat there alone
Waiting to be alone
Wanting to be at home
With you,
Music
Carry me like a child on stage and find me, bruised in some corner of
middle-Aamerikkka
sauce all over my blouse
Letting no one near
My car-keys, lest they lose them, and I never make it home
To the sound of crashing and banging
Bring me the horizon,
The softest one